Sorry, it's been awhile.

 

October 25, 2012

Good morning!! It sure has been a while.  I am so sorry.  I have been so busy trying to keep up with everything else.  Not a lot has been going on.  Monday was my first day on bed rest.  Sitting at work was getting to be too rough.  I have been having contractions (Braxton hick’s) more frequently. My doctor’s seem to think I have too much amniotic fluid surrounding the baby causing my body to think I am further along than I really am.  So I have been told to SIT!  I have 35 days until my scheduled C-section.  I am too excited but I don’t think I will make it that long.  I am big as a house.  Malachi is doing well too.  He is a big boy.  I can’t wait to meet him.  (still working on the middle name though)  I had a baby shower a couple of weeks ago and it was really nice.  So many people came out to support me.  I am so grateful! I still need a few bigger items.  My blood count is back to as if I was normal.  My count is at 9K.  I will start the real treatment since the baby is born. I am claiming healing right now, in Jesus name.  I will not have to face this for the rest of my life.  This is something I just had to go through to get closer to God. And we are becoming good friends.  Have your way with me Lord!! Keep me close in your prayers and I will do the same.

I am lost!

September 10, 2012

Guess what? Still boring!! Yeah!! Life being boring is great news for me.  I am down to two pills a day and 15,000.  My count may fluctuate up or down as they get my dosage right.  I have a sonogram tomorrow.  It will tell us how well the baby is growing and we can finally set my due date.  At my last appointment, he was measuring 5 weeks early.  I am so excited, I think but I feel so lost. I am in a state of wilderness.  What is the purpose of all this?  Will my pain become something great? While visiting with my doctor, I noticed that he wasn’t as happy as he normally is.  So I asked him what the matter was.  He explained that his daughter was going through Melanoma which is a form of skin cancer.  From his look, I don’t think she is doing well.  So as of today, I am starting a prayer list.  If you need prayer, let me know.  I will post your first name only and reach many for prayer for you.  I am going to start the list with Michelle, she should be preparing for transplant today.  The next is my doctor’s daughter, please pray for healing.  Gina and her husband also need some prayer for continued strength.  And as for me, please ask God to do what he sees fit for me.  Thanks!!!

Boring....

September 1, 2012

Good Morning!! It’s been awhile! The good news is not much has been going on.  I had a sonogram a few weeks ago.  Malachi is a little over 2 weeks ahead of schedule.  He was measuring 1 pound 11 ounces and 14 ½ inches long.  He is strong and everything seemed to be going well.  My goal blood count in preparing for the baby’s arrival is 20,000.  I am down to 18,000. YEAH! The doctor’s has also reduced my medicine intake.  Instead of 4 a day, I am down to three.  Life to this point has been somewhat boring but I do praise God for it.  I have two people who were in my shoes I can talk to.  I am in prayer for my newest friend Michelle.  She is about to undergo a bone marrow transplant.  She has to go through 8 days of chemo and will lose all of her hair.  After the 8 days, her brother will come in and they will start to extract his marrow and give it to her.  Wow!  But when it’s all done, she will be cancer free.  I have some research to do but I am thinking this is the way I want to go.  I don’t want to be subjected to medicine and cancer for the rest of my life.  I am praying over it. 

Inadequate

August 16, 2012

I sit all day. I sit at work.  When I get home, I sit. I am not sure if I sit because I can get away with it or does leukemia really affect people like this. I don’t know for sure because I refuse to research anything on the matter.  I have all these thoughts of what I want to do but no energy to do it.  I asked my husband if I was this lazy before I was diagnosed.  He wouldn’t answer.  So maybe I am just lazy.  It hit when I was at work and received a call from Theo.  He told me he was struggling to make lunch for the kids second day of school.  Having lunch ready would’ve been a priority but I didn’t even think about it.  My son’s birthday is coming up too.  I have nothing.  I am a big birthday person and normally would have a party planned by now.  I was so concerned about what I want to do; I have my priorities out of order.  I guess I will blame being over emotional on pregnancy because I cried like a baby. Get it together, Donita!! My friends at work came to the rescue and explained I was just being too hard on myself.  They were just being nice.  No excuses!! I am a wife, a mother, and an example.  I have to get it together.   I find my prayer list getting longer and longer.

Great News!!

August 15, 2012

I have been waiting on this day for a week. Everyone including myself wants to know when is the baby due?  I haven’t had an answer in quite some time.  The last I heard was he could be here as soon as 10/12.  I didn’t want that at all.  At the Perinatal appointment, I had a sonogram.  Everything looks great.  Malachi is still measuring 2 weeks early.  He is head down and ready to gain all the weight needed to be healthy.  The doctor assured me that there was no reason why Malachi needed to be here before 38 weeks unless my health changes.  This is GREAT NEWS!! I was told it was possible they would recommend that he was delivery at 34 weeks.  My nephew had to stay in the hospital awhile since he was born early.  I don’t want that.  Now this makes 3 doctors’ appointments per week.

The mystery note

August 13, 2012

Today, everyone had to go their separate ways.  Theo had to be at work, I had a doctor’s appointment, and the boys were out of school so they had to spend the day with Uncle Robert.  Good thing I have a great mother, she came over to watch and shuttle the boys.  My doctor’s appointment went well.  I am down to 42,000.  I was also informed that I may have to get another bone marrow biopsy.  And they don’t want to put me to sleep.  It hurts!!!  I am ok with the biopsy, but not the awake part.  I will be fighting this idea.  Once I got to work, there was a note awaiting my arrival.  I was so pretty.  I was intrigued so I took a closer look.  Someone had thought about ME and made a card.  It was decorated beautifully with butterflies and said God loves me.  The note went on to say that this person was thinking of me and just felt the need to share a token of love with me.  She explained if there was anything she could do, she was there for me as well.  She also shared her on testimony.  It was the day she found out her husband had leukemia.  She felt like she was the one going through.  She cried and cried again.  She felt the weight of the world on her shoulders.  What would see do next? How would they get by?  Would he be healed?  She wasn’t sure of anything anymore.  But God reassured her.  God let her know that just because we are Christians doesn’t mean we have it easy.  But he will bring us through.  This is the same lady from the earlier post on 7/9/2012.  She was going to be off on vacation and wanted to let me know.  I hope she has a great one, she deserves it.  This story helps me keep things in perspective.  I am not the only one facing my illness.  My husband who is my main support is also going through a tough time.  He may feel the weight of the world on his shoulders.  I try to keep him uplifted and encouraged but sometimes I fall short.  Keep me in your prayers. 

God sent another angel.

August 9, 2012

God has sent me another angel, an angel who knows exactly what I am going through.  My sister did some research to help me in starting my new non-for-profit.  I found a website called Hope for Two.  On the site, I could choose to have a support woman call me.  If you know me personally, I do not throw pity parties.  I don’t want to be in an atmosphere of sadness and despair.  I am not the group meeting kind of girl.  Well, I decided to sign up for this “support woman “ to call a few days ago.  Today, she called. I was working and couldn’t take the call.  I had doubts about calling back, but I had questions.  The boys were busy watching TV and Theo was on his way home so I had a few minutes.  What’s the worst that could happen?  At the very least, it would be a question- answer session.  I dialed the number.  I explained who I was and she took control of the call.  She asked me to tell my story.  I told her and then she told her story.  She was just married and not using birth control because of some medical conditions that lead her to believe she couldn’t have children.  Well, three months later, she was pregnant with her first child.  At the first prenatal visit, her blood count was high enough to land her in the hospital.  She took a different medication to control her blood count but all was well.  Her choice of treatment to keep her white blood cell count in check was by taking injections in her stomach daily.  On the last visit, the baby’s amniotic fluids were low so the doctor decided it was time to induce labor.  She started the induction on Tuesday and the baby was finally delivered on Friday.  She was then facing some complications following childbirth with a blood clot and an infection of the blood.  After two weeks, she was strong enough to go home.  She immediately started treating the leukemia with Gleevac, the same medication I will need to take after my baby is born.  Some of the symptoms of this treatment is nausea, hair loss, and fatigue, all of which she is dealing with.  She is now contemplating having a bone marrow transplant to alleviate all the problems and be completely healed.  But there are risks so she is deciding if it’s worth it.  Well, that’s the story but the touching part was that she is a Christian.  God sends you what you need, even if you haven’t thought about asking for it.  Her son, Ezra Isaiah, was born 2 years ago and is watching over his mother like a guardian angel, healthy as can be.  I asked if she would stay in touch with me while I experience what she did.  She agreed.  She also sent pictures of Ezra and he is so very cute.  We also agreed to keep each other in our prayers.  I LOVE GOD, HE WORKS IN MYSTERIOU S WAYS!!!