Inadequate

August 16, 2012

I sit all day. I sit at work.  When I get home, I sit. I am not sure if I sit because I can get away with it or does leukemia really affect people like this. I don’t know for sure because I refuse to research anything on the matter.  I have all these thoughts of what I want to do but no energy to do it.  I asked my husband if I was this lazy before I was diagnosed.  He wouldn’t answer.  So maybe I am just lazy.  It hit when I was at work and received a call from Theo.  He told me he was struggling to make lunch for the kids second day of school.  Having lunch ready would’ve been a priority but I didn’t even think about it.  My son’s birthday is coming up too.  I have nothing.  I am a big birthday person and normally would have a party planned by now.  I was so concerned about what I want to do; I have my priorities out of order.  I guess I will blame being over emotional on pregnancy because I cried like a baby. Get it together, Donita!! My friends at work came to the rescue and explained I was just being too hard on myself.  They were just being nice.  No excuses!! I am a wife, a mother, and an example.  I have to get it together.   I find my prayer list getting longer and longer.